Super Administrators kit Posted March 25, 2006 Super Administrators Share Posted March 25, 2006 Kaizer, thanks for feeling like you can open up to us here. We really appreciate that. Is there anything we can do to help you get through this? kit Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kaizer Kaizer Posted March 25, 2006 Author Share Posted March 25, 2006 Not really, no. But I'm glad to see so many of you are willing to assist. I remember back when this stuff kind of started. Whatever would happen, I wouldn't even feel anything. It's like...like I was empty. I just need to get away from this house. There's so much hatred and sadness here, I just need to get out. I'm going to see if I can go to my grandma's. My aunt's birthday is this sunday. That might be good for me. I've been having dreams lately. I take it none of you are experienced in dream analysis? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
vejlin Posted March 26, 2006 Share Posted March 26, 2006 Depressions are tough, grab all the help you can get. You definitely did the right thing sharing how you feel. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
smokingwreckage Posted March 26, 2006 Share Posted March 26, 2006 I think the most reputable dream analysis is that they indicate stress and anxiety. Like the seiries I had that all ended with me dying horribly! Boy was THAT a fun time in my life. And yeah, get out. Get some time away from the places that remind you of everything bad, try to find some that make you feel good. Just getting outside and into air and sunlight can be helpful, it gets the right chemicals into production in your brain. Make sure your diet is as good as you can stand too, there's no point letting yourself get screwed by basic chemistry. Lotsa fruit, lotsa water. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kaizer Kaizer Posted March 26, 2006 Author Share Posted March 26, 2006 I'm over at my grandma's, and I'm almost finished watching Bicentennial Man. I think I'm getting over this two-week manic depression. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
tabascojunkie Posted March 26, 2006 Share Posted March 26, 2006 Keep your head up man. It gets better. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
coogle Posted March 26, 2006 Share Posted March 26, 2006 You may or may not find these writings usefull. I did most of them between visits to the hospital for extended periods of time for depression. http://users.bigpond.com/peterjudyklatt/ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mastertickles Posted March 26, 2006 Share Posted March 26, 2006 Your bodyu is going through Hormonal changes that cause chemical imbalances in the body. You should look into a drug that could help balance you out. Also excercise and eating right will help get rid of depression. Finally I would do some google searches for ways to reduce depression. you would be suprised that just changeing your music interests can help alot. I had problems with road rage about 4 years ago. so I started listening to Bob Marely now I never have road rage and I still listen everyday. Hope this helps! larry Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
FeniXbane Posted March 27, 2006 Share Posted March 27, 2006 I've definitely been through hard times myself. I went through a few years starting at your age where I lost a lot of close family members along many other difficult personal and family problems. My grandfather passed away rather suddenly, my brother died after years of battling with drugs, a few months later my father died after being ill for two years, and within days of that my grandmother went into the hospital which started her decilne in health until she passed away a few years later. It was truly a struggle every day dealing with my brother's problems and then taking care of my father when he couldn't take care of himself anymore. I was down for a long time during and after that but over time, things got better. It's important to find people who can help you through it. I'm lucky enough to have good family and friends. I also had a great counsellor in high school that really helped me through everything. You should definitely talk to your school counsellor. If you don't feel he/she is being helpful (and some aren't) request to see someone else or even talk to a teacher that you like. Most teachers and other school employees choose their line of work because they want to help and make a difference in people's lives. It's important to understand that any self-destructive behavior (suicide, violence, drugs, etc.) will not help. I've seen it all too close and every time it only makes matters worse. Instead, try to find things that you can do to keep your mind off of what's bothering you. It's good to deal with your emotions but you need some time away from them, too. Maybe join an after-school club or play a sport that you like. Also, you mentioned writing in your profile, that's a great way to release your emotions in a productive way. You might even consider a pet. I have two dogs and can vouch that they will always love you, protect you, and never laugh at you, plus caring for someone else will make you feel important. If you really want some time away from your house you could try asking your grandmother if you could stay with her on weekends or something. It would probably be a good thing for both of you. All of the advice everyone's posted is really great so choose whatever seems best for you and give it a shot. If it doesn't work, try something else. I'm, also, willing to chat here or through PM if you ever want someone to talk to. Stay strong... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Redhandstudios Posted March 27, 2006 Share Posted March 27, 2006 sorry it took me so long to get to this, kaizer... i work in special education. i work with alot of teens who are suffering depression and anxiety for many various needs, rangeing from mild behavioral issues stemming from aggravated home issues to kids who can't talk, walk, or feed themselves but have normal functioning brains who are dealing with life as an ínvalid, (man i hate that term..) If you need to chat...pm me. or e-mail me...centraloregonbujinkan2yahoo.com. Glad to hear you are starting to come out of it...don't keep it bottled up, man. Talk to people about it. Me, all of us on the forum, heck invent an imaginary friend to start with. :) Yes, I have had experience with dream analysis, but it is a fairly inexact science and tends to use a ton of Freudian crud that i don't personally believe in... good luck, amigo. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
slidedog Posted March 28, 2006 Share Posted March 28, 2006 Kaiser, Sorry to hear you're having such a tough time. 15 is a hard time in life, and I know it's hard to do, but remember that all of this will pass. Pour yourself into a vision for your life. Dream about and find a passion you can truly believe in, then start taking baby steps in that direction. Sometimes we can feel there is no hel p in the world but this forum is proof there is. Many people would help you, but remember, just asking isn't enough, you have to ask people who are actually able to help. I have a 15 year old son who I think is doing quite well, we have a great relationship. By the same token when I was 15 my dad was a sourse of most of the stress and pain in my life, so I get where you are coming from there. Through a belief that I could have a better life and working my tail off, llife is pretty damn good and I'm very glad I hung on for the long term. You must as well. This is a time of confusion, physical changes, as well as emotional stress. I was there once and it does get way better. Find a friend, a minister, whoever, that will listen to you and not judge your every thought, and try to move some of you negative thoughts into positive actions to change your future. If that is getting free of your old man, get an eductaion, find a passion and leave him in your dust. Read biographies of people that interest you, you'll be amazed how many cam form tough circumstances, and some of their ideas may give you some. If you need somebody to correspond with, I'll hook you up with my son. Send me a PM with your email and I'll pass it along to him. Maybe seeing things from a different perspective would give you hope. I know all of that is easy to say and hard to do, but all you've got is you and you can do it! Remember "Never give up , Never surrender" The fact you are strong enough to open up to people tells me you have a lot going for you and you can kick some serious a** once you put your mind to it. Take care. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Crusoe the Painter Posted March 30, 2006 Share Posted March 30, 2006 Existential angst comes from how we feel our lives should be, and what they actually are. I find myself sometimes feeling really down, ruminating over how much the past 4 years have hurt my employment prospects. Then I marvel at where I live now. The buddhists were a pretty smart bunch, it's desire that makes us miserable. It gets in the way of enjoying what Zen would call the 'isness' of being. Of enjoying the experience of simply existing. So why am I talking about this? 1) Find someone to talk to. Are your parents supportive? You might be suprised, they HAVE gone through the crud you are experiencing now, at least to some extent. At least someone, either a parent, or someone at school, has been at the bottom of the same well, and gotten out. Hey guys, life is fun. Pain shared is pain divided, joy shared is joy multiplied, as the saying go. 2) Look for support groups, maybe consider seeing a psychiatrist. Yeah yeah, crackpots and drugs. That's not true. You have the right to leave and find another psychotherapist if yours is a loon ( and some are ), and you need to look at psychatric drugs as a tool to help break the cycle of black thoughts. Even small amounts can be therapeutic. A good psychiatrist will work with you to find the drug combo that works, and has the least side-effects. These are ideally training wheels. By breaking the bleakness of depression, they'll help you get out, back into society, and over time, you won't need them anymore. 3) Exercise! Exercise! Exercise! Pick a bright sunny, and go out for a walk. Watch people. Realize you are one very small part of the overall planet. There are people worse off, and better off than you, physically, mentally, and financially. So obviously, what matters is attitude. 4) Try a little meditation. Find out what is upsetting you. Find out what makes you happy. Is there some food you enjoyed as a child, back when you were 5, and the only monsters in the world lived under bed? Find some of that food, and eat it, and really pay attention to the experience. Don't shovel it in while watching TV, pay attention to what you are doing. Even small things are suprisingly joyous. This is the core of Zen. <:) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lady Tam Posted April 7, 2006 Share Posted April 7, 2006 Find someone you can talk to...talking helps...and as silly as it sounds write. Sometimes just writing stuff down helps you work it out. Depression is more common than people realize, and more people have it than will admit. It takes a lot to come out and say "I suffer from depression." But admiting it is the first step...treating is the hard part because what works for some don't work for others...There is some good advice already offered. There are people on the board that have felt the same way...and still do, and they, and others are always willing to help. It is what makes this board the great place it is. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kaizer Kaizer Posted April 7, 2006 Author Share Posted April 7, 2006 Um, yeah. I'm completely over this. The bi-weekly stigma has passed. You can stop giving me advice for now. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
smokingwreckage Posted April 9, 2006 Share Posted April 9, 2006 Awwwww. But I wanna give advice! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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